Well, today I spent my morning purchasing plane tickets to New York City. As much as this last year has been really hard and trying for me, it seems I’ve accomplished more of my goals than I ever thought I would. I’ve said it before, but since I was a little girl, traveling the world and experiencing everything all of the amazing places around the globe has to offer has been my biggest dream. For a while, it seemed it would be nearly impossible to accomplish this goal and I thought this dream would be nothing more than that- just a dream. But I was wrong.
It was really scary for me because I decided to take a break from school, which I was going to, to study Communications. I came to realize what I was ultimately going to school is not what I want to go to school to do for the rest of my life. In fact, I have absolutely no idea what I want to go to school for. That’s something that really stresses me out. I always have a plan, but lately it seemed to me like my life was slowly spiraling out of control and I was swimming in disaster. It took me a while to realize that everything is so much more than okay right now.
As I traveled, I experienced the beauty and culture of other countries, witnessed other lifestyles, learned new languages, and was overwhelmed with the spectacular-ness of all of it. I would never get that sitting in a lecture hall. (not that I have anything against going to school. It’s just not what I want to do right now.) I learned about things I’d only ever read about before. Like, I witnessed these things in REAL LIFE! And it was amazing! It was everything I’ve ever dreamed of and more.
I want to change the subject a little bit, and talk about fear. (sorry, I know this post is all over the place, but just hear me out.) I’ve feel that I’ve lived with a sense of fear practically my whole life. Don’t get me wrong, some fear is good, since it keeps you from doing completely stupid and senseless things. But I feel like I was letting my fear hold back. I was scared of change. I was scared something bad would happen to me. And most of all, I was scared I was going to fail. Since traveling, and opening up my heart to the world around me, I’ve really tried to not let fear hold me back. I really feel that, in particular, my trip to Europe really opened my eyes and my mind up to the possibilities and helped me erase some of my fear that I had clung to for so long. I mean, I ate snails for goodness sake! I do things because it’s a good idea and I should totally do it, and it will make me or someone else happy and I shouldn’t care what other people think because this is my life and I’m determined to make the absolute very best of it. I know it sounds corny, and cliche, but my words are true! I promise! Fear is something that no longer holds me back from seizing the day and living my life to the absolute fullest. Why would you want anything less?
So, back on track to the whole point (what even is the point??) of this post. If you feel that you may be in the same boat as me, (See: How to Quit Your Life and Travel the World Instead) and are scared of doing something, or want to accomplish a goal, DO IT! Seriously. What’s holding you back? Yourself? Your fear? Don’t let it!
I was so scared for so long it was almost crippling. Even as I left for my trip, I was scared I was going to get knifed down, or run over, or kidnapped and sold into slavery. (the possibilities are endless, really.) Guess what? It was scary! I was alone in foreign countries where I didn’t speak the language and had no idea what I was doing! But you can’t let bad thoughts erase all the possible good that could come into your life because of you following your dreams!! Anyways, I feel like I’ve gone off track a few different times, but ultimately it comes down to whether or not you’re going to let being scared or worried let you holding back from accomplishing your best goals. Buy the shoes. Eat the cake. Take the trip.
I’m about to take a trip in about a month to New York City! I’ve dreamt of walking throughout Times Square, the New Yorkers surrounding me as I take in the beauty and diversity of the city. I don’t have a lot of money, but when opportunity comes knocking, I open the door. I didn’t always. But I do now. Life’s scary. That’s good, you just have to be scarier. Knock down those fears, take what’s yours, and do what makes you happy!
This was supposed to be a blog post about how traveling is good for you, but I’ve been doing so much self-discovery lately and I wanted to share that with you instead. I hope this can inspire someone to do something that makes them happy. I want to inspire people. And I want to travel, and I want other people to travel so they can feel as happy as I do. Because traveling IS good for you! So, moral of the story, take charge of your dreams and don’t let fear hold you back!
As a picture on my pinterest said, Carpe That Effing Diem.